A Segue I suppose

Who Are You?

This is me.

I have been avoiding this question for far too long. Literally spending an hour and half on wondering what I’m going to type. A lot of you will disagree with what I’m about to post but these are opinions on myself from myself. So let’s get this over with, shall we?

Hi, My name is Irvin Ahbran Moreno.

I attend the University of North Texas and soon will be attending Colin County Community College for a semester. I’m Majoring in Theatre with a concentration in Stage Management, Costume Design, and Make-up Design. I also love and enjoy making/finding props around the metroplex. Speaking of, I live in Garland, TX. It’s a suburb of Dallas. I live in the rather normal part of Garland primarily because we’re so close to Richardson. 

I’mcute, but not physically attractive. There are days where I think my body is beautiful just the way it is and others when I believe to be doing more to keep myself healthy. My personality is fractured at the current moment. I’m not sure of whom I want to be. Which Irvin is the Irvin that I most identify with. I’m extremely shy when meeting new people and am very soft spoken until I open up; and then good luck on getting me to shut up.

I am quite awkward in social settings. I always mess up somehow. I’m not very smart, but rather kind of stupid. I’m working on it though. I love music, movies, and tv. I’m especially good at Tv since I’ve spent most of life watching it. I love musicals and I love to sing even when I’m out of tune. I also love to dance and I wish I would have learned to dance at a younger age. I also love to read because I have this huge imagination. I’m not very good at expressing it in words. I’m terrible with words.

I hate confrontation. I love to love. I love love. I believe it is a real thing that cannot be defeated by any means of evil. I get attached to people easily and that makes it harder to let go. I’ve never had a real relationship and hope to one day find someone special. If not, then it’s ok. I believe it’s ok to be single and happy. I don’t dress normal. I wear vertical stripes with plaid and that’s the way I like it. I dress the way I do because it makes me happy and It doesn’t matter what other people think. My favorite color is Orange and Monkeys are my favorite animal. I love to make collages and workout. Sandwiches are the greatest thing in the world. 

This is just a tidbit of who I am, and there’s still lot more to discover. I look forward to the journey that lies ahead of me.

I am Irvin. Let’s be friends. 

·         In this past month, what have you learned

Uhhhhhh…..pass?

I’ve started noticing a lot of the negativity I create for myself. I’ve learned to somewhat control what I do and to express myself through more positive methods like writing. I’m trying to mend my bottle. 

I’ve composed a list of things I feel that I need to fix with myself. I don’t know if I’ve learned anything solid for sure but….yeah. lol

The next one is a biggie. The “Who Am I” Post. Fuck that’s gonna be a doozy for sure. 

A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Last year’s Come as You Aren’t Party

Me and my two eyebrows.

I have changed so much from last year. I thought Last year was bad…oh man. If I had known what was to come I would have done alot of things differently. I was Happy then. Happier. Now I breakdown every chance i get. But I do think it’s for the best. I believe that once in our lifetime we go through dark periods that seem to last forever. They don’t. Eventually things get better and you come out of it a better person. 

“Everything will be ok in the end. If it is not then it’s not the end.”

Tell me what you think?

·         Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Honestly, out of pure boredom. I thought it would be something interesting to do and it would keep posting everyday. lol

What you think about your friends

My friends mean to world to me. I get attach to my friends easily. I know that they love me contrary to what my brain tells me. There’s an earlier post about friendship that I can add and you can read all about it. 

 http://swervyirvy.tumblr.com/post/1108534995/friendship

What I would find in your bag

• A Script
• Prompt Book
• Journal
• Planner
• Sticky Notes
• Pens and Pencils
• Pills
• My Laptop
• Books
• My phone and Ipod. 

A letter to your parents

Mama y Papa, 

Para empesar quiero pedirles perdon. Perdon por qual quier dolor les e causado. Se que me amaran para siempre, no importa la circumstancia, pero una veces siento como que no les meresco. E Hecho cosas muy malas and si les digo les quebrarra el corazon. Amo a los dos y si me molesto debes encuando es porque no quiero que se acercan por que no quiro que me dejen de amar. Gracias por todo lo que han sacrificado por mi, un dia se los repagare. 

Les Amo mas que las palabras puedan describir. 

Con Amor, Irvin. 

I decided to make the letter in Spanish since my parents speak it. There’s a lot of typos. My Spanish has gotten bad. It’s really sad. =[

Something you crave for a lot

CHEESECAKE.

If I hear this word, I have a compulsion to automatically want it. I’m legit fighting the urge to go to Fiesta and pick one up. 

:(

·         What makes you different from everyone else

Omgsh.

Being different has been something I’ve been conflicted over for a number of years. I used to love being the weird kid that stood out from everyone else. Now I just yearn to be normal so I don’t have to deal with the shit that I deal with. 

I express myself differently than most and I react differently to a lot of things. I do ordinary things either the difficult way or some weird way to no one would think of doing. I dress differently than most people. I dress to appeal to myself and not to anyone in particular. My brain and mind function differently, but I believe that’s everyone. I dunno what else to say. 

A picture of something that makes you happy

Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Interesting question.

At one point in my life I though I would marry Sarah or Eric. I even had the delusion of marrying some of the guys I have liked. I’m a creeper crazy like that.

As of now I don’t know if I want to get married. I can’t see myself sharing my life with someone in that term. I can see myself having children and raising them, but if I will have a husband or wife to share that with, I don’t know. 

Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Irvy-Something everyone kind of just started calling me in high school. I use it a lot now and it’s cute no?

Smervin-Jimmy and I made up evil twins for a cast party once. It was kind of awesome. 

Irv-Something short of Irvin.

Swervy Irvy-Mrs. Unk called me this in high school and I really liked it. =]

Gurrl-Morgan and I called each other Gurl. Cause we’re cool like that. 

Grrrvinn-My name for myself when I am angry. 

These are the ones I currently have. I use to be called Pudge, Simba, and some others I cant quite remember.  

Plans/dreams/goals you have

Oh man. This is quite a list. There are alot of things I want to do with my life but Im not sure if I will be able to do them. But here are a few things that I would like to do:

• Be on a wardrobe crew on Broadway
• Live in NYC, Chicago, San Francisco, and England(Somewhere in the country)
• Study Abroad
• Visit Venice, Tokyo, and Sydney
• Be cast in a musical
• learn to dance
• Teach
• Own a library full of books, movies, and collectables
• have the perfect(for me) Walk in closet
• have 5-7 tattoos
• Stage Manage, Costume, or Makeup design professionally. 

 Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

My friend Morgan Larson. Somehow things always workout for her. Not just that, but it happens right away. Plus she’s such a positive person and so confident, I wish I could be her for at least a day.

Not the relationship part but everything else. XD